Monday, July 18, 2011
Barney and robin said going back to whats familiar is bad(or something like that) but what if you don't exactly know why its bad. Just when i feel down i have no one to talk to...
;cause I missed you again at 1:41 am
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
I can only hope that in the long run good guys triumph and bad guys don't. It's often confused me how a siginificantly large bunch of the guys around me remain single while i hear stories of assholes getting 2nd chances doing things the good guys won't even come close to doing. Perhaps people in my age group are just doomed to singlehood since generally speaking, girls date older guys and this "potential target group" would be the 1991 girls for those in uni. Girls who are, in a way, not ready. I sincerely doubt its just the people around me but tell me if it is. After awhile, I don't know what I'm looking for anymore or rather i don't if i take out the sins. Commit i can..but perhaps doing so blindly isn't a good thing. Give me a sign oh mighty one.
;cause I missed you again at 1:24 am
Thursday, November 18, 2010
I guess there really is a limit to everything. And i guess i'm in no position to demand anything. I remember saying i'd never get annoyed. On the long term basis yeah i'm not but i do get annoyed impulsively(i blame it on genes) and as in economics everything is fine in the long run but it never does come to that. Everything's perfect if i choose to ignore certain details. Time to stop ignoring? I look fine on the outside but i'm not, I'm not. What am i to do when the thing that cheers me up a lil each day is also the thing that makes me need cheering up the most?
;cause I missed you again at 12:58 pm
Sunday, October 03, 2010
Forgive me mother for I have shamed you, for i have not acted in accordance to your teachings, for i acted in an ungentlemanly manner that which is the victorian way. As chia would say it, SHAME!!
;cause I missed you again at 12:41 pm
Beer never tasted better. Sadly i only have 1 bottle. I should so stock up for times like this. I've just been lying to myself all along i guess, telling myself i won't think too much of any gestures but in the end that's not what i really believed. I still wanna ** **** ***, but not when you don't wanna ** **** **. It's that i don't wanna try, it's just that failure seems to be the only answer i get. I guess the more i show my uglier side the more it makes things easier. Let's go G O go and move on. Sadly that's pertty hard bcos i'm still ** **** **** ***.
;cause I missed you again at 2:14 am
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Well it's the end of this roller coaster ride, it'll take sometime for the motion sickness to wear off but i'll get there.
在这短短的几个月,我得到了短暂的幸福,但也不知不觉中失去了几个朋友。 直不值得我还不知道,但愿这都是老天的安排。就为了让事情对你来说简单点,我决定手放开。
蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你
你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨 碎了满地
在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事
;cause I missed you again at 3:16 pm
Hmm i've learnt more today than i have in the past few months. No i'm not talking about studies. Thinking back, its been a roller coaster ride. When ur at the top you don't know when the final moment of descent is coming and when it does reaches the bottom in mere seconds. Just when you think its over you start climbing again. But seeing the big picture, at the end of it all, its all worth it.
;cause I missed you again at 12:57 am
Monday, September 20, 2010
Date 20 september 2010. 24 days after a particular post, what i foresaw or rather what i thought was bound to happen sooner rather then later has just given me one mighty tight slap across the face and a low blow to the groin. You might say since this is the 4th time it'd hurt less. Yes 4th im an idiot arent i. Its true, it is less. But if it dropped from 100 to but 99 on the pain index its not much isit. Thankfully jcrc stuff kept me occupied today or i'd be in a mess. If i end up doing alot of other things i normally would hesistate to do(like tutorials) just to distract myself then perhaps its a blessing in disguise. Whats a man to do really. Just what the hell am i suppose to do...haiz...
;cause I missed you again at 12:20 am
Saturday, September 04, 2010
Well school finally begins. although i haven't actually had lessons yet. Having travelled to ntu 3 days in a row this week all i can say is thank goodness for hall. Still a little lost with the whole esystem and notes collection but the boat will right itself when it reaches the bridge. Coming weekends are pretty packed so thankfully i have wednesday's to myself. All aboard the studying train woot woot!!
;cause I missed you again at 5:10 pm