Sunday, October 04, 2009
If it means i get to skip ns i don't mind spending another 2 years studying for my a levels. Started tutoring my brother recently and it just made me realise how rusty i am. My brain needs some serious derusting and servicing. My body is back to pre bmt fitness levels after several months of lack of physical activity which is bad and my brain is turning to mush to pre o level standards and that's worse. Being school meant being surrounded by people who cared people whom i cared about about people i call friends. And while theres still the occasional meet ups its just not the same as spending each and every day of your life being around these people. People say that ns buddies are your best friends in life. Maybe true for past generations but hardly true for mine not for me at least. True you also spend each and everyday of your life undergoing turmoil but while i dislike studying i hate ns. At least studying served a purpose, there existed a holy grail that led to something more, more than just the plain opportunity of shouting 3 lettered abbreviations to those who have yet to achieve it.
Perhaps it's because i've been spending so much time at home or perhaps its because the shackles which bind me and keep me from my freedom are only unlocked 3 months later than those about to be released or perhaps its a combination of both but it definitely isn't some sudden epiphany inspired by some random event.
Home is where the heart lies. While studying my heart followed me around for i but just travelled from one home to another from family to friends or vice versa. Now every sunday is a dread for i leave home and am deported away to ulu pandan camp. Funny thing is now i go out so often even staying home seems like a bore to me. I so wanna be back in school..
;cause I missed you again at 5:34 PM
Sunday, September 20, 2009
blogs are like so out of fashion unless ur some celeb and you want people to read so you get more ads and thus earn more. Its good in a way bcos it kinda means i can say what i wanna say without holding back..not that i really have b4. The late night must be getting to me cos im thinking very negatively at the moment or perhaps i've been too positive normally. I'd like to think thats a good thing actually. I so need to get a life. Really miss hanging out with the bros and bitching to them about everyone else. Caught the ugly truth today. It was about a guy who knew everything about relationships yet who wasn't in one till he got lucky at the happy ending and i'd like to push his own advice back at him. Yeah rite like that'll ever happen in real life.. A movie's a movie though.
Andrew asked me the other day what i was looking for(particularly for something that i shant mention) but then i really dunno what i want for anything actually. Aimless goalless. If you don't know what you want how do you know what you like or you don't or what you think is fine and what isn't. You can't like what you don't understand or rather its irrational. Guess i'll have to irrationally like myself. Haha oh well so much for the emo elmo mojo bingo bango stuff. May my inner demons burn in hell(though they'll probably like it)
;cause I missed you again at 4:07 AM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Yi ge ren de huan jin neng gai bian ta dui mo xie shi da kan fa. Sui ran shuo wo men ying gai bu shou wai lai ying xiang ju xu zhao zi ji de yuan ze qu zuo shi qing dan ru guo zhen de na yang zuo zhi de ma? Jiu wei le yi xie lian tong shi dou bu suan de ren qu mai tou ku gan zhi e ma? Kan dao bie ren she me shi dou bu zuo que neng bai zhe ge yu huang da di de mo yang wo shi zai bu fu. Yi qian shi kan zai shang si de mian zi shang wo cai wu suo wei. Shang si huan le que hai yao kan ren jia lian se ye shi zai shou bu guo qu. Zuo ye cuo bu zuo ye cuo hen ming xian zhe yu wo de ban shi xiao lu wu guan. Ye jiu shi shuo shi wo ren ge shang you wen ti. Ju ran wo ze me you wen ti na me nan ti ni rang ta men zi ji qu jie jue ba wo bu gan le. Fan zheng dao zui hou hai shi hui bei ren qi shi na wo gan yuan she me dou bu yao zuo. Wo tao yan zuo zong jian ren. Zong jian ren jiu deng yu zong jian de jian ren. Zhe ji ge yue wo bei ren xiang ge mu ou shi de bei shua lai shua qu. Fu yan ren de ba xi ye jiu dao ci wei zhi ba. Wo wu fa zai yi ge mei you xiao lu de zu zhi li sheng huo ying wei gu yi gao xiao dong zuo jiu wei le dao fan xiao guo dui wo lai shuo hen mei you yuan li. Er ji ran zhen ge xi tong dou shi ze yang de cao zuo de huo na wo mei bi yao gai bian gong zuo di dian. zhi hao ku ku de ren shou la. ba ge yue ya ba ge yue. Hao man chan de ba ge yue arh.
;cause I missed you again at 1:40 AM
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
i wanted to make it three in a row and i actually had something to blog about but i forgot about it and after that i just couldn't find the correct timing to blog again. I guess i'll try to keep this blog alive even if my posts dont contain any information. This 2 Weekends burn drastically decreasing my time spent at home. True i don't do much at home but home is still home where u fit in without having to do anything. Bunch of old specs just ord'ed and seeing them wave the elusive pink card is rather heart wrenching. Suddenly the 1.7 k i earned in jan last year doesnt seem so worthwhile as enlisting in january. Not that i had a choice anyway. If theres one thing that is common among 99% of the guys is that during a certain period of time they have this obsession. Obsessed with the 3 letters ORD!!! Arh and the most recent bleach manga was one of the better ones we've seen in a long long while hope they stay that way.
+No matter how talented one person alone cannot change the world -L-+
Tell me about it man
;cause I missed you again at 8:57 PM
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Wow 2nd week back must be some kind of record on consecutive weeks blogging after a long hiatus. The record now stands at 2 weeks. Lasts week's issue is somewhat resolved. But it adds to a thousand and 1 reasons why Feb 10 cant come any faster. Next few weeks will be a test of my character because i will have to face the stares of all those who return back to camp from outfield continuously. I think I'm moving but I go nowhere. yeah i know that everyone gets scared but i've become what i cant be. *Implosion in progress* 63% complete
Shi ge yue. Shi ge yue hou shi jie jiu hui gen wan mei. zhen xi wang wo neng yi sui jiu sui shi ge yue.
;cause I missed you again at 4:07 AM
Friday, April 17, 2009
Zhe ji tian wo ye you gou suay le. Bu gai fa sheng de shi tong tong dou fa sheng le. Bu guan shi qain cai, jian kang, huo ren shi guan xi dou yue bian yue zao. Wo dang bing gang guo yi nian, dan zai zhe yi nian li wo xue dao de ren shi guan xi he zheng zhi bi wo sheng qian de shi ba nian hai duo. Ye xu zai na shi ba nian li wo jian guo de shi mian bu gou duo. wo ye zhong jue de zhe zhong dong xi shi xue bu wan de. Di yi ci zai ren sheng li bei zu zhou dao zhe zhong cheng du ye suan yi zhong ti yan ba. Bu zhi gai guai zi ji hao hai shi guai bie ren hao, bu zhi shi wo xin li shi zhe me xiang huo ying ge ze me qu xiang. You ren he wo shuo guo zhe zhong peng you bu yao ye ba, wo ye ji de ceng jing he bie ren shuo yi ge ren shi wu fa man zu quan shi jie de. bu guo dang shi qing fa sheng zai wo shen shang shi xiang wa jiu bu yi yang le.Bu zhi wo xian zai pa de shi bie ren dui wo de guan nian hui bian huai hai shi pa na ren hui dui wo ze me yang. Bu zhi wo xian zai shi ying bei wu hui er shang xing/sheng qi hai shi gan dao xin xu. zhen bu zhi zhe me qu xiang cai hao. pi qi gu guai de ren zhe me qu mian dui ne. Ru guo wo shuo ta ai gao xiao dong zhuo yi ding hui chen xu er ru na ta ye neng shuo wo zai ta bei hou cha le yi dao. gong shuo gong you li po shuo po yo li. yuan yuan xiang bao he shi liao. Wo de ren qi zhi shu tian tian jiu xiao gu piao na yang xia hua. Zai jia shang wo ting bu dao you kan bu dao de jia you tian cu kan lai xiong duo ji shao. Zi chi ta de ren ye gai bi zi chi wo de ren duo ba. tian tian dou xu yao ti xing diao dan kan jing wo dong xi ye bu shi ban fa. hai shi bie shuo ren jia de xian hua ba bu ran you zai re huo shang shen. Kan lai wo bu zhi de dong xi hai zhen duo lao tian ye bao you arh.
;cause I missed you again at 10:30 PM
Sunday, November 30, 2008
My original plan was to wait for my csm to allow the company to bring psp b4 i even considered buying one. But now i don't have to spend my already so minimal pay on one because my bro bought me one as a bday gift. Awfully generous of him and totally unexpected. Uni has done great things to him man. Maybe its cos being in nie makes him surrounded by girls lol. Oh well i think i'll spend my next weekend exploring it and leave it untouched in the few hours i have left till book in. At least i'll have something to look forward to in this week. No the thing is what do i get him for his next bday...hmmm
;cause I missed you again at 3:48 PM
